Not Tired

I guess my short nap is preventing me from sleeping. I am just laying in bed with a million thoughts twirling around in my head. I'm so frustrated at my inability to get a grip on my life. We've all heard that if you fail to plan, you plan to fail. I feel like I'm failing my family because I'm not planning. I spend my days reacting to every situation that arises rather than proactively steering us in the right direction. I do not even know where to begin. I know that God is the start and the finish. That is all I know. I know that with 5 kids 4 and under...there will be A LOT of reacting. But I'm talking about a general direction. I pray God will give me some answers.